♥I'm so in love with her..♥

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 20:14:07 GMT

New journal..fuck this one

comment if you want the link

I miss you<3

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 08:15:57 GMT

I am in love with the most amazing person in this entire universe..its such a wonderful feeling<3

Cupcake + Princess...9-19-03 and forever
I Love You Hunnie, Hunnie I Love You

my Maine experience..

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 07:45:37 GMT

I went to Maine today! It was pretty cool beans. I only been there once so even as a second time trip it can be pretty exciting. We smoked five blunts on the way there alone because there was nothing else to do and its a really long drive to Maine. And we were walking on the strip at Old Orchard trying to ask people for weed and shit but half of them fuckers only speak french lol. Which kinda makes me wish I jad taken that instead of spanish for a year or so so then I could have made some communication. But we played hackey sack with these random kids for a while. Ate mad food and shit. Watched Toni get her tongue peirced and Nate get his lip and then we went to the camp site, smoked a blunt and drove home. There were fire works and everythin but I wish my hunnie was there to watch them with me. But Saturday Toni wanted to take a trip to Hampton but I told her I was gonna be with Jenn all weekend so maybe if Jenn decides she wants to go we can see the fireworks together on the beach under the stars..how romantic would that be<3 Im so in love..

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 07:33:04 GMT

Girl it feel like you and I been mourning together
Inseparable, we chose pain over pleasure
For that you'll forever be a, part of me
Mind body and soul ain't no I in we (baby)
When you cry who wipes your tears
When you scared, who's telling you there's nothin to fear
Girl I'll always be there
When you need a shoulder to lean on
Never hesitate knowing you can call on, your soul-mate
And vice versa, that's why I be the first to
See Jacob's and frost your wrist up
Now you owe me, I know you're tired of being lonely
So baby girl put it on me

Where would I be without you (uh)
I only think about you (yeah)
I know you're tired or being lonely (lonely)
So baby girl put it on me (put it on me)

Yo, and I appreciate the rocks and gifts that you cop me baby
And that house on the hill when you drop like 80
On a down payment thinking damn ain't life gravy
And ever since for my honey I been twice the lady
What would I do without the nights that you kept me warm
When this cold world had a girl caught in a storm
And I accept when you riff when you caught in the wrong
And respect when you flip, 'cause our love is strong
And when you hit the block, I watch for 10-4
And when my pops asleep you snuck in the backdoor
Baby ~~boy~~ girl we been down since junior high
So when life get hot in july it's the world against you and I
We ballin', tied together and never
Heart from the heart, knew that it would last forever
When you told me, you would never leave me lonely
So baby ~~boy~~ girl put it on me

Since we met it's been you and I
A tear for a tear, baby eye for an eye
And you know that my heart gon cry
If you leave me lonely
Cuz you not just my love you my homie
Who's gonna console me, my love
I'm outta control hold me, my love
Cause I'm yours
And I don't wanna do nothin to hurt my baby girl
If this was our world it'd be all yours, baby
The thought alone might break me
And I don't wanna go crazy
Cause every thug needs a lady (yeah, yeah)
I feel you baby cause them eyes ain't lying
Wash away all the tears there be no more crying (baby)
And you complete me, and I would die if you ain't wit me
So baby girl put it on me

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 20:47:51 GMT

I miss you baby, but I wish you the best in life..and just remember that house with the white picket fence and the tire swing infront will always be out there waiting for you if you ever change your mind. Just look me up if you change your mind in the future, I'll always be waiting for you to come home to me. And dont worry there will be plenty of animals for you <|3

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 20:45:04 GMT

Heyy
I'm really diggin ya lips,but be careful where you walkin when you swingin them hips, I'm kinda
Concerned that you'll be causin a crash wit ya traffc jam booty, heads pausin so fast, Heyy
I would'nt trade you for the world I swear it, I like ya hair and every style that ya wear it,
And how the colors cordinate wit ya clothes, from your manicured nails to ya pedicured toes

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 05:05:20 GMT

"So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day"

- The Notebook -

Jenn..I love you baby and dont ever forget it. We're gonna be ok, you'll see princess. Its me and you against the world baby together forever<3

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 04:34:58 GMT

So, been a while since i let people know whats going on. Me and jenn still arent together but im hoping to change that in the next few days, depending on when she comes back from hampton beach. im going to college in arizona when i graduate high school. Im still on house arrest which is irrelevant considering im always out and never at home. I cant sleep i have so much on my god dman mind right now. I cant even concentrate on this so im gonna go for now, when i chyll out i'll update again

I love You Jennifer Lynn Sargentelli <3 09-19-03
always and forever...forever and always

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 03:35:36 GMT

TEN random things about me:
10. I wear boxers
9. Pink is my absolute favorite color
8. Im stubborn sometimes
7. I do have a soft side beleive it or not
6. Im in love with a girl
5. Im actually really smart
4. I cant say funyuns or lemonade
3. I lisaten to almost every type of music
2. Im a lesbian
1. I smoke alot of pot

NINE ways to win my heart:
9. Cook italian food
8. Look in my eyes when you talk to me
6. If you get me flowers a good protion of them should be pink
5. Be romantic
4. Be open minded
3. Make me laugh
2. Be creative and unique
1. Be yourself

EIGHT things I wanna do before I die:
8. Bunjee Jump
7. Get married
6. Drive from worcester to California and go to every state
5. Go somewhere on every continent
4. Get my tongue pierced
3. Scuba Dive
2. Get a tattoo
1. Have sex with angelina jolie

SEVEN things that annoy me:
7. Drama
6. Ignorance
5. Hoes
4. Wet willies
3. School
2. Quiet people(its always the quiet ones)
1. Liars

SIX things I wish for:
6. To go to P-town
5. A luxurious future
4. Someone to spend my life with
3. Children
2. A good job
1. Angelina Jolie

FIVE things I am afraid of:
5. The dark
4. The future
3. Relationships
2. Mike Myers
1. Spiders

FOUR of my favorite items in my room
4. My bed
3. Posters
2. Ceiling
1. Pictures

THREE things I do everyday:
3. Shower
2. Appreciate life
1. Think of her

TWO things I want to do right now:
2. cuddle
1. smoke a fat ass blunt

ONE person I want to see right now:
1. S.O.S

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 17:49:53 GMT

holy shit!

I havent written in this thing in forever. I dont know what gave me the urge to do so but i just had to write in here. So news..not with jenn(shes at job corps still), broke into south and got busted, getting drugtested and not caring, failing school, going to csc next year, and pretty much just partying and sucking at life lol. THE USUAL :) I saw jackie the other day and that was awsomness and three quarters dude. Well I dont know what else to say so I guess this is all for now but I'm gonna start writting in here again.

Im blazed laterz

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 17:05:16 GMT

April 13th is a Day of Silence to support gay rights. Keep your mouth shut on Wednesday, April 13. If you are gay or know someone who is, please participate in the Day of Silence.

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 02:10:39 GMT

9-19-03
made it for a year and a half<3

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 17:27:05 GMT

Why do you build me, build me up
Butter cup baby
Just to let me down, and mess me around
And then worst of all
You never call baby when you say you will, say you will
But I love you still
I need you, I need you
More than anyone darling
You know that I have from the start
So build me up, build me up
Buttercup
Dont break my heart
<|3

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 03:56:30 GMT

So, I just got home. I'm so fucking sick..my day really couldnt be that much worse. Theres was a party I was invited to and I couldnt even go because I feel that shitty. Come on now, I turned down weed! Now you guys know I'm sick lol. So yeah over-all summary of my day..Sitting at my house..staring out my window waiting for her, Went on a blunt ride, got sick, now I'm home. SO as you can tell my day....

SUCKED ASS!

p.s-I have a fever like whoa! :(
You're suposed to take care of me when I'm sick...

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 23:31:11 GMT

Im in the worst fucking mood ever! I sat around my house all day waiting for her :( Now I dont have shit to do because the people I usually chyll with wanted to chyll earlier but now they have shit to do...and I didnt go earlier cuz i knew I'd lose track of time and I wouldnt be home in time to see her. So I did nothing all day because I thaught I was going to get to see her. Apparently not. ugh....I'm just aggravated in general right now...I hope she shows up..

*I've been looking out my window for hours so I guess a little longer wont hurt right?*

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 16:34:11 GMT

ABOUT YOU...

1. Name:

2. Age:

3. Height/Weight:

4. Fave Color:

5. Fave Movie:

6. Fave Song:

7. Fave Band:

8. Most Embarassing Moment:

9. Are you a virgin?

HERE COMES THE FUN...

1. Are we friends?

2. Do you have a crush on me?

3. Would you kiss me?

4. ...With tongue?

5. Would you enjoy it?

6. Would you ever ask me out?

7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater?

8. Would you hold me if I was crying?

9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?

10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?

11. If I gave you my phone number, would you call me?

12. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?

13. Do you talk shit about me?

14. Do you think I'm a good person?

15. Would you let me sleep with you?

16. Would you take me to a romantic walk on the beach and let me lay with you?

17. Do you think I'm hot?

18. If you could change anything about me -would you?

19. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 05:21:51 GMT

Ohhh
Ain't no mountain high
Ain't no vally low
Ain't no river wide enough, baby

If you need me, call me
No matter where you are
No matter how far
Just call my name
I'll be there in a hurry
You don't have to worry

'Cause baby,
There ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you

Remember the day
I set you free
I told you
You could always count on me darlin'
From that day on I made a vow
I'll be there when you want me
Some way, soooooome how

'Cause baby,
There ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you

No wind (no wind) , no rain (no rain)

{Ohhhh..ooh ooh ooh}

My love is alive
Way down in my heart
Although we are miles apart
If you ever need a helping hand
I'll be there on the double
Just as fast as I can

Don't you know that
Ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from you

Ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from you

Don't you know that
There ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough

to keep me from gettin' to you babe..

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 14:37:47 GMT

you let me violate you, you let me desecrate you
you let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you
help me I broke apart my insides, help me I’ve got no soul to sell
help me the only thing that works for me, help me get away from myself
I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
my whole existence is flawed
you get me closer to god
you can have my isolation, you can have the hate that it brings
you can have my absence of faith, you can have my everything
help me tear down my reason, help me its' your sex I can smell
help me you make me perfect, help me become somebody else
I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
my whole existence is flawed
you get me closer to god

through every forest, above the trees
within my stomach, scraped off my knees
I drink the honey inside your hive
you are the reason I stay alive

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 18:18:52 GMT

Well, I just woke up lol I know I know, *lazy ass!* my lip hurts like a bitch because I burt it. Last night being the genius I am I wrapped my lips around a lit inscense cone lmao. But thats a whole nother story..

Im pisssed at Jenn but what else is new right? Well I dunno what else to write about so I guess I'll write more later...

<3 I Wanna Fuck You Like An Anmial <3

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 03:57:18 GMT

Had a bad day, don’t talk to me, I’m gonna ride this out
My little black heart breaks apart with your big mouth and
I’m sick of my sickness, don’t touch me you’ll get this
I’m useless, lazy, perverted and you hate me
You can’t save me
You can’t change me
Well I’m waiting for my wakeup call
And everything’s my fault
Went to the doctor and I asked her to make this stop
Got medication, a new addiction, fuckin’ thanks a lot
I had a relapse, I’m bad at rehabs, it ruins everything
So point you finger at the singer, he’s in the pharmacy
You can’t save me
You can’t change me
Well I’m waiting for my wakeup call
And everything’s my fault
You can’t save me
You can’t blame me
Well I’m waiting here to take the fall
And everything’s my fault
And I’m a death threat, haven’t slept yet
Baby, why the wake-up call
I’m the bad boy, tell the tabloids
Everything’s my fault
Yeah, write it
Everything’s my fault
I went to heaven, I couldn’t get in, for what I have done
I said please take me, they said your crazy, you had too much fun

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 02:24:50 GMT

SO, the past two days have been quite interesting lol. I dont even know where to start! The first thing that kinda amazed me was when Jenn called me asking me if I still loved JAckie as more than a friend. I thaught it was quite random but it felt good to tell her how I honestly feel. I told that yes, I will always have that love for Jackie and I explained how Jackie was, is, and always will be my other half. The only question I didnt like was that would I leave her for Jackie if Jackie were to leave Ileana? I told her it would depend on the circumstances in which me and Jackie were both in at that point in time. I'm always going to want that second chance with my first love but most people never get that again so I'm not really thinking about it ya know? But when she did bring it up it kinda made me a little depressed thinking about it but I dunno..Shit happens right?
well my mom decided to come and chyll with me laina tinsley and sippy for the night because we did my grandmmothers basement over and she didnt want ot be alone with my grandmother(which anyone who knows my grandmother cant blame her lol). So we got two pints of Ragin Red thinking my grandmother wont care if everyone stays over except apparently she wasnt feeling well. We were smoking mad weed down there lol and mad butts. But I think the craziest part was all the fucking speed we were doing. LIke, after a while we were so fucked up that no one was even paying any attention what so ever to how mant we were doing. Anywho, my grandmother tells sippy and tinsley they have to leave cept my mom helped us sneek them back in lol. Then we proceeded to do some more speed, we were doing lines after lines after lines lol. When I woke up this morning I puked for a little while but afterwards I felt alot better. Jenn and Ash came by, Jenn stayed but Ashley had shit to do. She had the cutest little kid! *I'M SO STEALING HIM ASH! :)* lmao but anyhow..I'm bout to go and try falling asleep cuz that speed fucked with me hardcore! I havent slept more that an hour in over 24 hours so I'm tired but so tired I cant sleep. Anyone know what I'm saying lol? but I'm OUT! PAYCE!!!!!

Sun, 20 Feb 2005 14:33:16 GMT

DAMN! I havent written in here in forever. So, my life..nothing really exciting besides talking to people that I havent talked to in forever <3 I'm mad bored. I'm usually not up this early. Lately I've been trying to stay out of trouble and so far im doing ok at it I guess. I saw Jackie! OMFG DUDE! I havent seen Jackie in forever. Everyone told me she looked weird cuz of her hair but actually, I think she looked great! I miss her more than anything in the world. I want to hang out with her sometime like we used to ya know? We used to have so much fun together! Everything we did no matter how boring it seemed we found a way to make it fun. I missed Jackies attitude lol. She always states her opinions lol. But anywho, I guess thats it sooo...im outties :-)

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 07:25:40 GMT

Jenn & Steph
9-19-03 Forever and always

I <3 U
Luv, Princess

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 02:38:38 GMT

1 MINUTE AGO: scratched my head in thought.
1 HOUR AGO: i ate nachos.
1 DAY AGO: i was with brandie at her house.
1 WEEK AGO: drinking a pint of captain morgans by myself to releive my new years hang over.
1 YEAR AGO: i was living with my grandmother.
1 YEAR FROM NOW: i'll be getting ready for my baby to have a baby :-) .
1 WEEK FROM NOW: hopefully still everyhting im doing now.
1 DAY FROM NOW: i'll be on my computer probably.
1 HOUR FROM NOW: i'll be smoking my bedtime joint.
1 MINUTE FROM NOW: still doing this shit.

I HURT: for many reasons.
I LOVE: jennifer lynn.
I HATE: my life.
I FEAR: rejection, death.
I HOPE: shes thinking about me too <3.
I FEEL: lazy.
I HIDE: my emotions.
I LEARNED: not to trust people until they trust you.
I NEED: to sleep.
I THINK: too much. or sometimes too little.
I DREAM: of her.
I WANT: it to be summer.
I MISS: chris(my dads ex).

First best friend(s): Jackie Johnson(and always will be the best friend I ever had. i miss her).
First car: my truck.
First date: i dont even remember..sad huh?.
First real kiss: that meant something? Jackie(yes people I fell for my best friend).
First break-up: andrew.
First job: painter.
First self purchased album: probably spice girls lol.
First pets: my rottweiler.
First piercing/tattoo: proffessional-my belly button.myself- my lip.
First credit card: none.
First enemy: i dont have any really.
First big trip: new york.
First play/musical/performance: i was a lion in a pre-school play.
Last good cry: today.
Last phone call: jenn.
Last TV show watched: the munsters.
Last time showered: yesterday.
Last shoes worn: my black dc's.
Last CD played: my mix.
Last item bought: a pack of marlboro 100's.
Last annoyance: keyco blowing me off.
Last ice cream eaten: strawberry shortcake at like 10:30 last night.
Last soda drank: root beer.
Last shirt worn: my aerosmith t-shirt from my first concert in 5th grade.
Last web site visited: this one.

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 20:58:38 GMT

This song rocks!

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You beautiful soul, yeah